This is an email I wrote to my best friend today. After sending it I realized it might be worth sharing with the world.
Here I am. Sitting in this little grey cubical at a client I could live with or without. I’ve sent a few planning emails to clients for my upcoming weeks of travel. I am executing yet another items request list for yet another client that I have in a few weeks. So the process goes.
I imagine about right now you are being orientated (at his new job) in some way. You probably feel a mix of feelings. A feeling of “I made it” mixed with some excitement and maybe even a little nervousness. You probably feel some need to rush on to your first project thinking “I just want to get started”. Oh, and your ambition – your unlimited ambition to be promoted to the next level all to increase that paycheck and put a little more cushion and security between your family and the evils of poverty.
I’ll tell you what I’m thinking. I am contemplating dreams. Dreams of giving tourist sailing lessons and fruity drinks on some majestic Island or lake in the mountains. Dreams of travel, adventure, and excitement. Dreams of taking one-of-kind photos, writing stories about life, debating the economic and political future of the world. Dreams where the monotony ends and the excitement doesn’t. A life so full, so exhausting, and so lived that when I die I will be ready – without regret.
Ask yourself this Holden. Is this the best your life can be lived? For myself, sometimes I wonder. When I die will I look back and say – I should have don it differently. Or will I look back and say “Damn, that was awesome.” I hope the latter is what’s in store for my future dying self – I only hope I have the courage to live that way. Courage. Courage to get out there and bust society in the mouth.
Otherwise we’re beat. We’re beat with the big stick of status quo. I grin at my 22 days vacation. I think that’s awesome. Then I realize the other 250 work days a year I’m stuck wasting most of my time forgetting what it’s like to live a truly amazing life.
We are stuck behind the idea that we are “supposed to do”, “supposed to have”, “supposed to…”, and we so quickly forget what we need. What we need to live amazingly. Maybe all that we do is a means to the end – I just hope we realize it when that end comes. I hope we make the leap.
So here’s to always remembering to be awesome. Let’s get to it.