I have been so stressed this week. It disappoints me to be stressed. Not because I am working so hard, but rather because I never pictured my life going this way. I always saw myself living life with purpose, happy. Instead I’m on a stressful assignment at work that is literally keeping me up at night, trying to work the details out in my head. Why?
I think I need to take a few minutes to settle back down, to let it go. Put work back into its place and realize I am working to live, not the other way around. Then the irritation compounds because I am disappointed that I am even stressed. Why am I actually letting something so insignificant effect me this way.
My goal has always been to enjoy life to the fullest. To live everyday without regret. Through college I always stopped for a moment and told myself, “enjoy this”. I really tried to capture the moments and enjoy myself. I think I need to do that again, now. I was running today and really enjoying it. The weather was perfect, the trees and grass were beautiful – there was even a scent of sweetness in the air. I told my self then, not to forget to enjoy myself, everyday.
It’s tough to enjoy life to the fullest when you are on a stressful project. I guess at this point it comes down to enjoying the little things – or to find new job. I’m too much of a coward to quit my job, it’s too secure and pays too well – how can I complain? I’m not much of a risk taker. Instead I am going to have to learn how to enjoy life in a different way. Cherishing every moment of free time, every glimpse of something beautiful, and every break.
Work hard, but enjoy life. Leave work at work and prioritize accordingly. I only have one life and I need to be SURE to enjoy it.